Hail to lord Ganesh....or is it to Nachi?
It seems a bit weird to do a posting as well after reading Jess's and Heather's blogs, but actually I would like to mention that I guess none of us could actually stop writing/talking about Nachi.
To tell you the honest truth, I have only really start knowing Nachi on the 30rth December 2004 for our preparation to go into the new year on Mont Choissy beach in Mauritius. I have to admit that this Indian is a bit different from the others I use to know. To put it in perspective and as someone once told me....he looks indian, but from the inside he is just Nachi.......and I guess he loves partying, but also at the same time he could be serious and be loyal to his friends.
I have met a lot of people before and I like to obeserve most of them and kind of analize them to the extent where I really decided I like them or I don't and nothing will change my perspective of this decision afterwards. Nachi on the other hand had a way with people and I think that we all do really love him. I think one of the most important qualities I look for in friends are honesty, loyalty and be genuinely the person you really are.
I have to admit that Nachi had all of this, but he was special in his own little way and genuinely a true friend and I do not think there was 1 day that he really made me angry. I remember this one night partying at Jess's house in Quatre Borne and we drove to a shop for cigarettes....(I'm still adement that I wasn't drunk, but I could not speak for the others)......and after our return we got the North American Hurricane running down the Indian Ocean. I guess I got the best of this Hurricane, but Nachi also walked through and he decided that night that he would sleep on the porch with all the mozzies zinging around......This was just how I remember Nachi.
I could honestly not agree more or put something different down in writing then the other posts, but I would like to mention that this dude is definately a great guy and I truly hope that he always will be and that Capitalism would not get the best of him and change him forever. I dig you bru.....
So, you all please raise your glasses and drink to Nachi......what is it? His19th Birthday!
Cheers my friend and have an absolutely great day and I wish you all the best wishes in the world. You can be proud of yourself, because we are all proud of you.
Ciao
Deviating the sarcasm and the truth shall set you free!
It has taken me a long time to open my eyes again to see the things around me that really lightens my day, but somehow I still do miss it. Tonight was a night where I reached back to those things that just brought out the best in me and somehow I just relived a moment and I realised how lucky I am.
Back on the island, my main focus was to succeed professionally and to proof to those that doubted for so long that I will make it, even if it meant doing it on my own. For a very long time in my life I thought that I needed to proof to those who were so very close to me that I could be just so much better.....just that little bit more then your usual average person and I definately tried to achieve more than was predicted for me. It is really funny how we in a modern day society try to live up to the expectations of everyone that loves and believe in us. And when we fail, it kind of seems that it was our destiny to do so.
I kind of ran away from everything that was normal around me just to be free from everything that held me back and to start a new leave by doing just that I believe in. It is really akward to analize yourself to such an extent where you ask yourself certain questions and you for god sake know that you will never have any answers. The easy way out is always to say that time would tell and it will also heal many wounds. I found a feeling a while ago and somehow I have overplayed my hand and burned my fingers and thought that there would not have been any easy way out or how impossible it would have been to imagine sunrise the following morning. That is when you know that you have hit rock bottom and there is only 2ways out. The first is by death or the other is to stand up and build everything around you to such a level where you would profoundly find satisfaction and then that feeling........
I wish I could explain to you guys exactly how that feels. It is definately not feeling of acceptance or maybe the attention one receives once you thought you made a big time in this hard, mercyless, cruel world that we are living in. I guess the easiest way to explain it is by noting that if there is absolutely noting on earth that bothers you and you just ride the wave. I guess it might be the feeling of riding the wave of personal success (not that I would know) or just totally satisfaction of achieving everything that you set yourself out to obtain, but in the same time to be free from everything that tries to pull you down. It is not easy and we live in a world loaded with stresses, grudges, heartache & pain and misfortune......but at the end of the day all that really matters is that you achieve total inner happiness. To many people this level could be achieved by setting themselves different goals, but I know what makes me happy even though I thought that I have lost it somehow. Yes, maybe I did loose it for a while and yes, I did loose myself in such a bad way that it took mysteriously different directions to get to a point to realise that somewhere I have taken a bad turn.
After my European tour I thought that no more shall I let myself get down to that point of no return and I tried to tuck all those things that really hurt and discouraged me away and somehow find new light to move forward. I went out of my way to make sure that it will never happen again (for now at least) and I have focussed on those things that never let me down. But the biggest lesson I guess I have learned lately is that somehow you need to deal with those things otherwise it will bother you untill you set yourself free from it. And I definately do not talk about my previous relationship or about the people who let me down. No, definately not at all, because at the end of the day you walk this earth alone and you are the master of your mind and you definately determine your own destiny. It just takes time to settle into those things that dearly creates your own world of so many wonders. Sometimes I think of just how lucky I am to do just those things that gives me internal satisfaction and to be in a career that you believe in, eventhough it is not always sunshine and roses, but the end result is just so must more satisfying......even if it is only me that sees it that way.
For a second tonight I felt it again......and that comforted and encouraged me in a way that I knew that I am definately on the right track. If I turn around now I will be a fool and just play this one out....you will see the final product. Somehow I have created a world around me that sometimes I do loose a bit of motivation and think by myself what on earth was I thinking....You are definately out of your league and then just that thought......hey, you are Gordon and nothing is impossible.You just need to put your mind to it and you will make it and then is not just a tip, it's a promise. Life has a funny way to make us realise how lucky we are, even if it means learning it the hard way. The easiest way to really understand all of this weird shit is to see tomorrow morning when you wake and think by yourself....what fuck has this great day have installed for me. Be all that you can be and take up every opportunity that life has to offer...even if it means for me to eat fish.....which I do now sometimes......
Sunday evening I got on my bike (The Beast) and I took it for a Sunday Evening Drive and I for just a moment I felt soooo free and it was just me and my beast. And I was really satisfied to say the least. It is always such a great feeling to reach certain milestones in your life it this was definately one of mine.....But at the end of the day I do feel lonely and I miss to have that comfort feeling of someone just believing in the good of you. Nothing else, just you and I have accpeted that I needed to learn all just that what life wanted me to learn from that situation and I still do......eventhough there are so much questions floating in the air.....there is just one that I think I need to know and it is all that actually matters and that is how are you doing? Really, sometimes I see shooting stars and then the best wish I can think of is to wish you definately all that happiness in the world...because you definately deserve it all.
So, I guess I have said everything I wanted too.....What a strange turn my life has taken and to think back one year ago and never would thought that I have accomplished so much in such a short time of space as I have done since. Never let your dreams die......Sometimes I think it is really all that we have. LIVE IT!
Bla Bla This & That!
Nice, I really thought I should blog once again about my thoughts and not what I'm doing during my weekends.
Well, like most of you know by now that I have bought my bike and the American who sold it to me gave me this website "only for bikers" type thing. Well, on this site I found a guy that is busy doing a global tour alone with his BMW 650GS and what he could fit on it. Fucking interesting if you ask me and now he is somewhere down South America. Man, just think of the scenery, the rum, the oceans and then of coarse.....the latin chicks.
Now by now I have heard so much about the latin ladies. I think it is about time to start to do some investigations concerning this rumour. I mean, you can't always believe what you hear and this subject has attracted my attention totally. Maybe I should ask Degremont if I can maybe do my next project there or maybe in a place like Cuba.....because that is definately a hit list on my travel plans.....the question is only when.
I mean, what is wrong with some well tanned ladies doing the cha cha cha on a bar table with real spanish guitars in the backround. If I have to answer this question, my first impression will be there is TOTALLY NOTHING WRONG with it. Maybe, just the way I like it. Then I also think that Vietnam doesn't sound that bad either. It has always been one of my many wonders and hope it could someday be a reality. By now I'm pretty use to develloping countries, so why in the fucking world do I want to visit another develloped country again. The first thing is that develloping countries are so much cheaper to go too and then.....I do not even want to mention the availability of some of the .........OK Gordon, I guess it is time that you should try out the latin side of things.
So.....other thoughts. Dirk has this thing now about designing a house. Something about recycling water for re-use at different areas and then the ultimate bright spark idea of ...."the front door and back door should have the same key". Well, I think it's OK, but what bothers me the most is that there is NO mention about the bar or maybe the bar hanging over the swimmingpool. Or just a spot in the pool where you could order directly from the bar without getting even out of the pool. Another great idea about a hous I think is to have windows that you can look out from inside, but from the outside it reflects.
Then I do think a lot about all my friends around the world and that they don't fucking update their blogs. Fuck, how must I know what the hell is going on in their lives? Anyway, I did find out lately that everyone walks this earth alone. Only you can determine your happiness and only you know what really is the best for you or what you need to be satisfied. Right now I'm open for anything and trying to experiance as much as possible as long as it only includes fun...party.....and maybe a little bit of this or that!
I think it is really great to have escaped all those things that kept me hanging on the backseat. You know, things that are keeping you from progress and ultimately finding out where you belong and your purpose. For me, right now, is PARTY in capital letters and the true sense of the word. No, I kind of miss all my friends back in Cape Town and I think it is about time now that I should go and have the ultimate party there. Just get fucking wasted and pass out on the beach like old times. Na, the beaches here are much better, but then again, you have beautiful table mountain there. I mean, what in the world must I do to have all the great stuff in one place? I think it gets quite expensive travelling up and down just to see the things you really miss, but definately the weird part is that you can't wait just to get back home.
So, I assistent Project Manager is here from France. I guess I should take him out for a dive or 2. The only thing is that it would need to be during the week, because the dives are only in the mornings. Shoud find out if he has his diving certification here. What else? Ahhh, it was really funny today driving down the road and a couple of goats crossed the road and the last one had some kind of weived bag over it and it was tripping all over the road beacause of this bag. It is only sad not to have my camera available, because it was definately worth the picture.
So, it is weekend time and tomorrow I will go to DAR with the BEAST (KTM), because on the weekend Dirk, the family and me will go to Bangoyo island. White beaches and tropical water. Last time Dirk visited it there was a couple of honeys (from Sweden I think) and they tanned topless on this beautiful beach. I definately know what I will be focussing my attention on when I get there and just maybe I could get lucky......yeah, lucky enough to meet the oldest people in Tanzania or some weird phsycopaths and whalers.......Na, just go snorkling
I guess.So, this was it.....enjoy your weekends because I definately will.
Au revoir et A Bientot....tous les monde
Ciao
You will find FREEDOM via your DREAMS!
My new Love...KTM 640cc Enduro taking it offroad for the first time.
Oceans so blue...It definately brings the best out of me!
Spectacular beaches without any polution or coral. Definately brings the best out of me.
Enjoying a shower out in the open air with a gorgeous view in the backround. What in the world could equal this?
Now, this have been one of those many moments where I hate to be in Africa. I just lost yet again another posting due to TANESCO "reliable electricity supply" to the promised local community. Fuck, was auch immer!
Let me start again. The reason for me going to South Africa was to collect cash to purchase a 2002 KTM 640cc (Offroad & Road) bike and I did so last Tuesday. I received my license as well "legally" from the local authorities (on Thursday) for only USD75.00 and I passed with a destinction in my absence. Any one has a price, just name it!
So, this weekend was definately the best opportunity to familiarize myself with my recently purchased bike and truly put it through the tough terrain to find out if it all was worth the expense. I truly have to agree that I have found new happiness and my dreams from childhood could now become a reality. One of my dreams was to travel on a motorbike from the Equator to South Africa via Zambia & Mozambique and I'm definately planning to do it next year this time all along the eastern coastline of Africa.
So, Dirk & Rieta invitied me to join them and friends of them for the weekend at a beach house about 50km's south of Dar Es Slaaam. The drive included at least a 60km detour (due to insufficient directions), 2 major cloud breaks and real muddy dirt track racing. Saturday we set off and reached the beach house around 1:30pm with the main aim to consumpt as much of alcohol as possibile or that was rather my idea. It started off quite slow due to unpacking and getting familiarise with our new surroundings, but eventually socialising started turn out the way we know best. Actually, I arrived on the scene first and sat and observed the most spectacular view I have ever seen in my whole life. Just so fucking incredible!
Around 2:30pm we were all parting along enjoying the view, interesting conversations and off course we were definately supproting the fair Eastern Africa trade relations with alcohol consumption. The party went on 'till around 2pm Sunday morning and I even waked up without any babalas. Sunday was definately the most beautiful morning I have seen in Tanzania since I have arrived here with the most beautiful view over the tropical Indian Ocean. We went down to the beach for the swimming and a couple of snap shots. After the sun fried out skin, breakfast was served with bacon, toast, eggs and me, at least 2 beers.
While the others prepared to leave again, we settled on the beach again. Amazing, just so fucking amazing. I have never felt so free 'till this morning and I really enjoyed the company I was finding myself in. Basically I could have called them my new family since Mauritius, but this time it was great just to hang out a bit and just enjoy beauty what mother nature has to offer. It was really such an amazing feeling lying on the beach or floating in the sea without any interferance from the outside world. This beaches was so beautiful, clean, no coral and at least 400m of untouched beauty. No polution, no noises, really no foreigners and no fucking taxis.
I really enjoyed this long weekend even if I have third degree sunburn wounds....just kidding, but I kind of have some visible lobster marks all over my body. But not as bad as Dirk though. So, all fun to an end and now the focus is back on work. 'Till next weekend it is!
The Lourens family, thanx a million for such an incredible weekend and we sure need to do it again. Thanx again, I really did enjoy it tremendously. So, for all you guys out there, if you really do want to check out the pics of the weekend, visit my flickr photoblog. Photos will go up shortly and they are amazing.
So PEACE on EARTH.....and U2 RULES!
Ciao
Assisting my dreams......
Wow, what a busy schedule I had the the past couple of weeks. Believe me when I tell you guys that by now I'm fed up with airports, sitting 2 hours prior to International flights and then of course spending the time in the airoplame.........
It is always exciting going to places different from where you stay, but getting there first is the problem. I have devellop this incredible method of when I get onto a plane, I immediately start to fall asleep and then I wake up when the plane start to decent and then I know....Party Time.
Yeah, I left Thursday to go home for a long weekend and I returned on Monday evening. I really did have fun, but everytime I get home it seems that nothing ever changed except me. It was funny to realise at least that most of my female friends are getting prettier by the day. Not that they are ugly or unattractive at all....No, definately not by far. I think it is because of Tanzania.....No real HOT CHICKS walking past my site office the whole time and it seems like they are only coming out during nightime like VAMPIRES...Ready to suck some blood? Nice, just the way I like it.
Anyway, (stop talking shit Gordon) I met up with 2 of my best friends and well.......things tend to happen after a good couple of RED HEART RUMS and one thing leads to another and well....you all know what follows. No seriously, I enjoy spending time with the people I really know well. On Friday afternoon I went to a Large Audio Chain Store to go and look for a tripod for my HandCAM and I met up (by accident) with a gal I use to be friends with long time ago, but lost touch because of me moving to Johannesburg and then to Maurititius.....(ja, you all know where to else) and I found out that she is married and just had her second child. My god, the world changes so quickly and funny enough she told everyone (who do not even know me by the way) about all our drunk experiances and me sleeping on the side of the road in my car and......No, not everything for you guys!
I have forgotton these memories a long time ago and it was really funny to think back of all THE CRAZY DAYS and to realized that I have friends now around me still that I have met say 9 or 10 years back. Some even longer and I am still in touch with most of them to this day. Anyway, seeing my family, friends and especially my big love, BABSI (that is my dog...Staffordshire Terrier cross with BOXER and my BOXER, Nicholai)...Think back when the vet had to save her from my staffi, because she was too big to be born naturally and I was the first one who held her......And it is unbelievable to see someone or something sooooo happy just to see me and she didn't leave my the whole time side at all even sleeping. (kind of made me think that she didn't want me to go again). So, it was really nice being back home.
So I returned on Monday evening with something up my sleeve. I have great news and I will let you guys know in due time. Lets just say one of my biggest dreams has come true and I am soooo fucking happy with myself. I can honestly tell you guys much more blogging will come from this and it will definately be fun. So, keep 'n'eye.....That's it for now.
OH.....Amu, really glad to receive your email this morning. Really happy!
Ciao
Weekend at Barneys!
Mwanza is not called "Rock City" for nothing. That ain't a lie.
An island just off shore of Lake Victoria. Different from what I'm use too, but then yet agian I have never seen an island in a lake before.
Sunset over the water is what I'm use too. Isn't it beautiful? I love WATER
Caught in the act! A fish eagle busy bathing in the african heat.
So, I fucking lost my previous post and as usual I am really fucking pissed off, but I will put something down again for my loyal readers.
This weekend I went to Mwanza, a town on the border of Tanzania, DRC, Uganda and Kenya that are devided by I think the biggest lake in Africa, Lake Victoria.
To start off, it was a quite nerve racking flight there especially when the pilot of a FOKKER decided to pull the thrust brakes of the plane only 20m above the water when I couldn't even see the shore or the runway. Anyway, he obviously knew what he was doing because I'm still sitting here typing this post.
So the weekend was basically scheduled for work, but since the fucking printer supplier or his technician only decided to arrive an hour before I was planned to leave on Sunday instead of Saturday evening, I really had fun partying all night and most of the mornings.
The weekend was filled with partying untill 5 -7am in the mornings, a lot of Captain Morgan's & Coke (with no ICE) and a couple of experiances with a Swedish chick as well with a Scotish chick. Nice, I was told when ever you are outside your country you should be an ambasador for your country and keep up the good foreign relations between your country and the foreign country. So I did and well I have to admit....My good old friend Wolfgang was totally right about the Swedish Volley Ball chicks.....Bru, the rumours are true. You should experiance it at least!
So, I got home on Monday morning and decided I had rehabilitate for the upcoming weekend. Yeah, I'm going home to see the folkes and build on my domestic relations back home. Give them all I can......If not, tomorrow I might be sad I didn't give my best and enjoyed every moment that I could. Nice one Charlie! Very diplomatically said.
So, Thursday I'm off to South Africa and I will retrun on Monday afternoon. Couple of days again for rehabilitation and then I'm off to Mwanza AGAIN for "work"...Working my right arm to see how many glasses I could lift of coarse. This is becoming like Mauritius again. I should check my diary to see if I'm free for upcoming weekends......Nice, just the way I like it bru.
So, to all my friends out there.....Joern, it was absolutely great to catch you on SKYPE. Y'all should enjoy the festive season (don't eat to much easter bunny eggs, your teath will get wrotten and y'all will get fat) and if you are going away, please drive safe or hire a TAXI......May the South African force be with all of you. I miss and love y'all. I was once told that I couldn't love everyone, but I did proof her wrong... I DO!
Captian Morgan, you rule brother. Take me aboard on your ship of exploration and happiness!
Ciao
