One Headlight To Nowhere!

Time on a end..........!

For a couple of weeks now it seems that this huge pressure was lifted off my shoulders and I took a couple of steps back and reflect exactly what was is happening around me, where the road will lead me, trying to understand just what I need to learn from this experience in Tanzania and then of coarse prepare myself yet for another change.

I do feel personal growth after spending 23 months in Tanzania, look on life with a more mature outlook and taking the necessary decisions to determine my personal well being at the end of the day. I really tried to take the best out of the last couple of weeks and enjoy what Tanzania had to offer. Honestly, I really do not think I will be sad leaving this place, but as from previous experience you tend to miss the people you leave behind. I had really good times here as well as very sad times and at the end you just learn from your life and grow into the person you ought to be.

Realising the time I spent here was dedicated mostly to my job, but at the end you realise how many good people there are out there in the world. As usual, you have to carry on and friends they will be forever. Even if you only carry them in your heart with the memories in your mind. It is time for new experiences. It is time for new people and responsibilities, but mostly it is time to follow the road where life takes you. Ultimately the decisions is yours to determine exactly what you plan for your life and the key to that "perfect life" (if that ever exists) is solely your responsibility. Go out that and take it.....It will be up for grabs!

Even though it seemed that I was not the happiest of people here in Tanzania, I do understand that it had to happen and I will take from it what I can. Now the time is to change. Change my life, change my goals and just change exactly that caused me so much grieve and cut it out of my life.....How else could you survive?

Lately, Vodka & Redbull became extremely one of my favourites and I can honestly say that I did abuse it to some level.......But I did enjoy it with great company and I am looking forward to make the aquintence again in the future on home soil. If you don't believe that you could win, how would you?

Just a word of faith.....I have made it. I am alive and tough times in your life could be beaten. I will never lie down and accept defeat. It is just not me.

Thankfully my time here has now ran out and this will be definately be the last blog in the deep "BUSH" of Africa. I just want to say thanks for the people who played important roles in my life and thanks for the fact that I could call you my friends. If you ever feel the atrong connection between us, just know that I do as well and I will always cherish your respect, friendship and advice in my life. I really do love you all. Thanks for the time here. I just want to mention a couple of names here who I believe played the most important roles in my life here in Tanzania in no specific order.

My family in South Africa, Nic, P'ulani, Leroy and Jackie van den Heever
Dirk, Rieta & Dylan Lourens
Surehka Seeth ( my pillar, strength and support)
Mr. Podi Bandara and his Sri Lanka gang
Don & Carrol Huntriss
Jean Louis Pierrefeu
Wayne & Lisa Storey
Terry, Simon and Abhed
Steve & Tania Laurie
Ian Adams
Bjorn Smith
Patrick Haye
Shargia & Gulnara Feizi

This is just a couple even though there are a lot more. Just live the dream!

PS: I have read on Susan's & Timo's blog that people are enjoying Birthdays in Germany. I guess by this time it is the Birthday of Hado. Sir, happy birthday and I do hope you enjoy it. Although there is no physical words, just know you are still in my thoughts and may your life be filled with great experiences and great people. May your road lead to experiences that you will always keep close to your heart. Happy Birthday again!.

Then it is also the birthday of Susan sometime soon. Although I really do not know when exactly it will be, i do think of you. May you also enjoy your birthday and spend it with incredible people. May you enjoy all the happiness in the world and know you are never alone. Let peace, happiness and love always be part of your life and know that you are blessed having the people in your life which you do. Happy Birthday as well madame.

Gordon van den Heever

posted by Gordon van den Heever @ 1:58 AM Comments: 11

Thought of the Day....!

A priest was being honored at his retirement dinner after 25 years in the parish. A leading local politician and member of the congregation was chosen to make the presentation and give a little speech at the dinner. He was delayed so the priest decided to say his own few words while they waited.

"I got my first impression of the parish from the first confession I heard here. I thought I had been assigned to a terrible place. The very first person who entered my confessional told me he had stolen a television set and, when stopped by the police, had almost murdered the officer. He had stolen money from his parents, embezzled from his place of business, had an affair with his boss's wife, taken illegal drugs, and gave VD to his sister."

"I was appalled. But as the days went on I knew that my people were not all like that and I had, indeed, come to a fine parish full good and loving people.".. Just as the priest finished his talk, the politician arrived full of apologies at being late. He immediately began to make the presentation and give his talk."I'll never forget the first day our parish priest arrived," said the politician."In fact, I had the honor of being the first one to go to him in confession.

"Moral: DON'T EVER BE LATE:

posted by Gordon van den Heever @ 11:25 AM Comments: 1

I did not forget.....!

Jeep Grand Cherokee 4.7L V8 HO Overland

First of all, it was Dirk's birthday on Wednesday 16 May and I did not forget about it. I was fucking stuck on a plane for 9 hours. Before he even wishes any bad luck to my itchy balls and falling off fingers; Happy Birthday buddy and wish you all the best. I know at your age you might find yourself a bit old, but, if your wife doesn't care then who should? OH, and happy anniversary!

So, I have been back to SA to go and buy my car. It was an absolutely awesome feeling to clime in the car and there was just so much power. Definately better then sex. 210bHp between your legs and under your ass......! Who could have asked for more? And then it was time to get to the office and start negotiating and it seems that common ground was found. I will be in SA untill Feb '08 and for the moment it seems just fine. I think being out of SA for so long it could be just enough time to revive the soul and get all my energy levels to prefered expectancy and just take the funk to new levels.

I am happy I think. I have taken a couple steps back now in Tanzania and look at was is happening and I only start laughing. Can not believe what I got myself into in 2005, but thinking about it now that I had to follow this route. It doesn't matter how hard it was, but the rule is to take from it what ever I could have and I will......Do not make the same mistake twice in a row. For now, it is time to close out here in Tanzania. Getting everything sold and sorted out before my time comes is quite hectic. OH Ja Dirk, ek gaan Terry se goed vir haar gee!

So, countdown has started. One hurdle date to get over and then it is the final straight to the 1st in Style! So for now, guys have fun!

Ciao

posted by Gordon van den Heever @ 10:15 AM Comments: 4

A Short Entry....!

First things first......

Well, tomorrow morning it will be the 10th of May and I hope you all know what day is that......Ja everyone, it is Jess's day! HER BIRTHDAY! So, HAPPY BRITHDAY BRU and may you have a lot of year still to come. And sex of coarse! I really hope you enjoy it and may it be just the year that you have been waited for so long. CHEERS to my buddy JESS, I will definately have a couple of beers on you tomorrow.

So for now,

I will go to SA on friday for 5 days. I bought a car. My god, it has been a while since I have done something so impulsive and expensive though. But, I need to sort out some financial issue and then I will spend mother's day with my mom. It really has been a while. So, I will return on Wednesday the 16th just intime of a huge celebration for the 21st.....Guess what I will get on for my Bday...A TICKET OUT OF HERE......YIPPEE! So, the 31st will be officially be my last working day in Tanzania and will leave here on the 1st July. 3 Weeks from tomorrow!

So, Jess, HAPPY BIRTHDAY again my dear and I hope you will enjoy the day.

Much love!
Gordon

posted by Gordon van den Heever @ 10:05 PM Comments: 2