Memorandum of my thoughts......!
I have incredible sad news over the past weekend and it brought reality back to mind. It is always a weird way to elaps one's mind to what is real and happening around you when your mindset is all focussed on what one needs to do to make life a little bit easier.
I do not want to name names or the actually event, but I would like to take a time out and just mention that my thoughts were dedicated to you and your family over the past weekend. The thing I hate most in life is to see others suffering and it is definately not one of my strongest trades in life to deal with such events.
I always thought that I had a extremely hard life and a lot of issues to deal with in my past. It was rather the most difficult time in my life, but at the end I am still standing and it tought me how to survive. On a personality level I know I am a strong person, but when it comes to issues concerning love one's it feels like my life could slip away any moment. I personally do not know how you came thus far and you are still standing amazingly strong. It was definately the character I cherished most and you are definately a person I look up too in times when life gets really hard.
All I want to say is that you should not blame yourself for what ever happened. It is/was not your fault and I can not foresee the you have placed any pressure on the situation and you should not during this time. It was done, it is over and now again you shall need to walk with her step by step, day by day. This is totally out of your league, but support and motivate everyday as much as you can. She needs your attention right now and do not let her slip away for one moment. Make her feel welcomed and needed in your life and give her at least the one reason to wake up every morning to see your smile. Even if it is the only reason. Life does get extremely hard at some stage in your life, but when you make it (and I believe totally that you will) you will be just evenly so much a greater person as you are today.
Belief is what guides us through life and once you lost that essence of life, times could even get worse. Never loose faith! This was not your call, but it forms a great deal of your existance. When she falls, take her hand and lead her into the right direction and stand by her side. 'Cause she does need you now more than ever and she believes in you. The man above gives us only challenges like this to some, because he knows that those are strong enough to deal with issues like that. He believes in you and so do I. Don't stumble or fall and if you loose track and you need support or comfort, my door will always be open for you and spiritually we will always be bonded. This was never a decision that could have stopped.......You never could and let it be for now.
I think of you and you should always remember when times were great. That are the moments we all strive for and it will come again. Just have faith, I promise you it will come. My heart bleeds for you and my mind dedicated to you and your family.
Try and smile, 'cause it the positveness will reflect on others and it shines through the goodness you hold within. That is probably the greatest tool that you could ever posess and just use it with no holding back. I believe in you!
