Some People....!
For the past 3 weeks I really tried to prepare myself for this day and normall you would think that it gets better as the years go by, but it doesn't.The first departure I got to deal with was with the departure of my good friend Herman from Top Turf back in Mauritius. I really took that one hard, but as more friends left to follow their respective lives it got better. When Dirk left in Mauritius I knew at that stage that I would see him again and therefor it wasn't that tough. It was also an opportunity for me to progress in the food chain and I took the bull by the horns and I just moved on. Then it was the first departure of Edina and then the second and that of coarse rocked my boat and I felt that I was sinking.
You do get use to this type of shit, but I can promise you that it doesn't get easier. Never actaully. Well, Dirk and his family left yesterday and somehow I feel really empty inside. What I also know now is that at this point in time I will never work with him again. It really feels like a family member has died off for me and honestly I do not like this feeling at all. I already miss my big brother and his family. To make it even worse is that for the past 3 weeks they have stayed with me and I spent probably 24 hours a day with Dirk. Now I enter into my apartment and it is empty and I do feel so lonely.
I miss the TV being on the cartoon network or the playstation making a fucking noise. I miss being waked up in the morning with people fiddling around me. I miss being offered coffee in the morning and I really do miss the great South African food Rieta usually cooked. I miss the good mornings and I miss the good nights, sleep well conversations normally late at night. I miss driving with my friend and just talking shit and laugh about all the shit we normally could think of being really funny. I miss Dirk, Rieta and Dylan!
I have now been involved with this family for about 2.75 years and worked with Dirk every day within it and I fear tomorrow. I feel helpless and my self-confidence flew out of the window just as they left. It is really strange to think how close you can get to somebody that was part of your life for only such a short time.
On the other hand I am really happy for them and I know they will do great where ever they will go. The tables has turned now and it is really everyone for them selves. Of coarse with Dirk leaving there are certain advantages like the fridge full of Stella Artois in our fridge at the office and woth me working I celebrate this day in memory of the Lourens Family with a lot of beer.
For Dirk, Rieta and Dylan......I really miss you guys incredibly and wish you all the best of the future. My only advice is that none of you should ever change, 'cause you all are just perfect the way you are. I love you all and a part of my has vanished and I will need to restart to build myslef again. Yeah Mate, Aussie just might be a lank cool joint and just say hi to Sheila for me.
May the South African force be with y'all and you will always be part of the best memories in my head.
With loads of love,
Gordon
